TO STAY CONNECTED BETWEEN POSTS FOLLOW ME ON
Instagram @ fortheloveofahouse

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

broken...


It is with broken hearts that I tell you that today we had to put our sweet, beautiful girl Amelia down.  If you had told me yesterday morning as we were having a cup of tea in the living room with the fireplace going and Amelia's head on my lap (Ella chose to be upstairs on the mama's bed) that I would be penning this post today I would not have believed it ... not in a million years.  




Just after sitting in the living room Amelia and I came upstairs and joined Ella while I checked emails. Several minutes later I heard Amelia re-position herself and moan.  She did it a second time.  I had not heard her moan like that since the day she came home from the vet a month and a half ago after having her teeth cleaned and several bad teeth pulled.  I knew she was in some kind of pain.  I went downstairs for a moment and when I came back up she had jumped to the floor.  I loved on her and tried to get her to walk to the rug that was bathed in sunlight, thinking it would feel good to her.  She walked towards me and stumbled.  I rushed to her and sat with her as I called Dan telling him to bring the car that we had to take her to the vet.  
We left her at the vet for them to run tests and x-rays.  All tests were normal.  Our vet had us take her to an Emergency Clinic for overnight monitoring.  Upon arrival there they did further x-rays and found that she had fluid around her heart.  Her sweet little heart.  We were told there were one of three outcomes, and would know more today from a Cardiac specialist who would do ultrasound on her.  We cried and prayed for her all night, but sadly early this morning we learned that it was the worst case scenario.... she had a large, aggressive, bleeding tumor on her heart.
 She was diagnosed with Pericardial Effusion caused by a massive bleeding tumor on her heart.  Fatal.  We would have moved the sun and moon for her if there was anything.... anything we could have done, but we were informed that due to the size of the tumor even if they had removed the fluid around her heart that it would reoccur- within minutes or days- but more likely minutes/hours, and even then she would probably never make it out of the hospital due to complications of the procedure.  We didn't want her to suffer for one single second.  She was uncomfortable and was quietly moaning this morning, but she wasn't in pain they said.

We drove to the hospital so that we could all be with her.  Ella came in to see her before she passed and then again after.  We stayed with her and petted and loved her for hours telling her how beautiful she was, how wonderful she was, how much we loved her and how grateful we were to have her in our lives.  We told her she was good, and precious, and adored, and loved over and over.  We told her how much joy she had brought to our lives, and how she will always live in our hearts.  She was used to hearing these words of love as we had said them to her each and every day of her life with us.
She passed quietly in her soft car bed (she loved riding in the car with a passion)  that she loved so very much with Dan and me petting her, kissing her and telling her how much we loved her.  
My first words to Amelia when she arrived on the transport a mere 2 months, 1 week and 3 days ago were "Amelia, I'm your mama."  As I held her sweet, precious little face in my hands for the very last time today I told her  "Amelia, I'm your mama."




Our hearts are broken.  2 months, 1 week and 3 days was NOT enough.  

I didn't think I would be able to write these words to you earlier today, but once home I realized that I had to, I needed to.  You were all so dear and sweet and welcoming upon her arrival and I wanted.... needed, you to know.



sweet Amelia would always sit on the sofa with her paws crossed; such a kind and gentle soul







so many people who met them thought Amelia & Ella were from the same liter








Prior to late yesterday morning Amelia had been perfect- a perfect six year old girl in perfect health.  She was the best girl and so wanted to please and learn, and she was learning.  She came to us not knowing her name, how to walk up stairs, how to play with toys, chew a bone, go for a walk,  the joy of going for a car ride.  She had learned how to do all of the above and even to walk off the leash running through in the woods.  Always a good girl, and coming back when called.  She ran like the wind and I can not put into words the joy on her face as she ran in our meadows and through the forest.  And then there was the overwhelming joy that the sight brought to both Dan and me.  It made us so happy that she was getting to live this amazing, wonderful dog life.  We are so sad for her, and us, that it was cut so short.  What a gift her short time with us was.  What will get us through is knowing that she couldn't have had a better last 2 months, 1 week, and 3 days of her sweet.sweet life.  And in the end, even though our hearts are broken, and even if we could have known, we would have still adopted her and loved her with all our hearts for 2 months, l week and 3 days all over again.  I would always tell Amelia and Ella that they belong to us and we belong to them! 
We are so very grateful to have belonged to her


It brings more tears to look out and see her sweet footprints in the snow. While they will melt and fade away her footprints will forever remain on our hearts.  
We are all so sad.


It would mean so much to us if you would say a prayer for our sweet Amelia.  She was, and is, a puppy-angel.
Thank you for understanding.


~~~~~~~~~~~~
post script

Dan and I are absolutely overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support and prayers you have given to us and to Ella.  We have read each comment on the blog, each email, and each comment on Instagram aloud to one another and we have cried and sobbed.  We have felt so loved and held in this time of shock and grief over losing sweet Amelia so suddenly and too soon.    Your words have soothed our broken hearts, your tears have made us feel understood in our grief, and we have felt the love of your comforting hugs.
Knowing that so many of you are saying a prayer for Amelia has brought us the most special gift.  It is as if  all your many prayers are carrying her on wings of love and she is being ushered into heaven by you.  I can never thank you enough for making us feel this and making Amelia so loved in this moment.  She was our gift, and you are our gift also.  I cherish each and every one of you.  While we might not know each other personally I feel we know one another's soul- the soul that loves house and home and dogs (pets.)
To all of you who have mentioned your lost beloved pets- our sympathies to you. We are so grateful that you told us about your loves.
Tonight when I light our candles we will do it as a family and say "Thank you" for each and every one of you- you have given us the gift of love and prayer and understanding and we are so very, very grateful.
Through tears we Thank you.  
with much love,
Joan and Dan and Ella

284 comments:

  1. I cried reading this. My heart hurts for you. Many prayers and good thoughts for your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Amelia was lucky to have you.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Oh, I am so sorry for your loss! My heart is broken for you, Dan, and Ella. I know Amelia had a great life while with being part of your family. Y'all are in my prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Crying for you as I read this. What a joyful and carefree life Amelia was able to enjoy at the end. Thank you for giving her such love and rescuing her. I know there is another sweet love out there who will bring you happiness and healing when you are ready. Your words are inspiring me to go love on our 4 year old rescue pup, who I spend far too much time reprimanding for eating the baby's food and far too little time showering with affection. Prayers are with you.

    ReplyDelete
  4. I am so sorry for you all - so shocking to find this out so suddenly. I hope you will find comfort in what a wonderful time you gave Amelia in the last months of her life. What a blessing.

    ReplyDelete
  5. Above is a link to our baby harassing our dog today. I hope it makes you smile!

    ReplyDelete
  6. Tears in my eyes as I write this....I will have you all in my prayers tonight. God bless Amelia.

    ReplyDelete
  7. I am so sorry. Amelia was very lucky you belonged to her. I will keep your sweet family and Amelia in my prayers. Our furry children bring us so much joy and are so stoic. They work so hard at their one job, to assure our happiness...Amelia was so fortunate that she landed with you, who worked equally hard to make sure she was happy and loved. Hugs to you

    ReplyDelete
  8. My heart goes out to you. I understand your feelings completely and I'm so happy for Amelia that she found such a wonderful home and family in her final days. I'm sitting her crying for a dog I never knew but felt like I did through your blog. My sympathies for the both you and Ella.

    ReplyDelete
  9. So sorry for your loss. So filled with joy that she found her forever family even if forever was much too short. Know that she loves you as well forever

    ReplyDelete
  10. So, so sorry for your loss of sweet Amelia. Our pets are family, regardless of how long we've had them. Ours is a sweet, gentle giant rescue dog, and I think they rescue us in their own way, don't they?

    ReplyDelete
  11. All dogs go to heaven. She was blessed to have known your love. Prayers for all.

    ReplyDelete
  12. I am so so sorry... You all will be in my prayers. Sending hugs from our entire family (including all of our animal family members)...

    xo xo
    Brooke

    ReplyDelete
  13. How lucky Amelia was to have such a loving home. I have said a prayer for your sweet Amelia and I feel your pain. I just lost my 6 year old cat Charlie, just as suddenly to Cardiomyopathy. He was a wonderful friend, had a great, short 6 years and will be missed terribly. Like you we did all we could to save him, but in the end we had to say goodbye and now we too are broken.

    ReplyDelete
  14. I am so sorry for you to lose sweet Amelia. I was just reading some of your old blog post when I thought, I should check Instagram, only to see your post on there, and then to read your new blog post. I am heartbroken for you and am fighting back tears. I always love to hear when a neglected animal finds their forever home. I'm so sorry for Amelia, you, Dan and Ella. My thoughts are with you!

    ReplyDelete
  15. I can only imagine your pain. I am so torn up reading and responding. She knew such joy and love in the short time with you. My heart aches for all of you. Sara, Ohio

    ReplyDelete
  16. I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Try to have peace in knowing that you made her feel so loved.
    Sending prayers,
    Shelley

    ReplyDelete
  17. Oh Joan, I'm so very sorry for you, Dan, and sweet Ella. You are so right, two months was definitely not enough, but I'm so sure that those two months were the very best in her whole life. Praying for your sweet pup.

    ReplyDelete
  18. Oh my, I'm so, so sorry. I'm convinced that just as much as dogs need love, they need to be able to give love - and you, Dan, and Ella helped sweet Amelia with both of those canine requirements.

    This poem always reminds me of my pups, both here and lost. I know that it might seem more appropriate for a happier time, but it reads as bittersweet to me, and I hope it helps you find some comfort:

    "He puts his cheek against mine
    and makes small, expressive sounds.
    And when I’m awake, or awake enough

    he turns upside down, his four paws
    in the air
    and his eyes dark and fervent.

    “Tell me you love me,” he says.

    “Tell me again.”

    Could there be a sweeter arrangement? Over and over
    he gets to ask.
    I get to tell."

    xo

    ReplyDelete
  19. I had to put my own Amelia down this past summer. We have a second home in Amelia Island here in Florida. My daughters brought home a weak and sickly 6 week old kitten during the first weekend we spent in our newly built second home. Someone had thrown her by the side of the road. The name choice was obvoous. A year later, we found out that she had heart disease. I gave her medicine every day and knew that each day was a gift. We had her for 9 blissful years and she was that one pet that I loved above all others. I was home with her by myself when her heart threw a blood clot and paralyzed her. I took her to the vet myself and had her put down. It was the hardest day of my life and I am still grieving. I am so sorry for you and share your pain. God knew what was coming and gave her to you to love during the time that she had left. It is an honor to love these animals.

    ReplyDelete
  20. So so sorry for your family's loss. Take comfort in knowing that you gave her the best two months of her life.
    xoxo,
    Gina

    ReplyDelete
  21. I am so very sorry. My heart breaks for you and your family. Amelia knew she was so loved and cherished by all of you. My prayers will be for Amelia, you and your family. Rest in peace sweet Amelia. Tammy from Washougal, WA

    ReplyDelete
  22. I have few words because I know there are none that will help. But I hope you'll take some comfort in knowing she left this world knowing she was loved.

    ReplyDelete
  23. My heart breaks for all of you - Ella included. We brought a rescue- a second Golden into our home a few years ago and our dogs would be lost without one another now. We tell our sweet Chloe the rescue that her life didn't start out easy but that we are making up for it as much as we can at the end. Think about what a sweet last few weeks your precious girl had. Without you she would have never had the love she knew. How sad if she had never been loved so well. I'm so sad for you but so grateful that she touched your lives and you loved her to the last moment.

    ReplyDelete
  24. Joan and Dan, I am so very sad and so sorry for all,of you. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. So sad for your wonderful big girl, Amelia. Such a good, kind sweet girl. So glad she had two months one week and three days with you all loving and cherishing her. Xo jane

    ReplyDelete
  25. Unbearable to read this awful news. I am so sad for you and your family. Amelia was a doll and I read and reread your post of her adoption because it just made my heart sing and it seemed so perfect and was for those few short months. Amelia was much loved and will be missed. Take care of yourself. All The Best, JK

    ReplyDelete
  26. I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you can find some peace in the knowledge that you were there to give Amelia so much love, care and joy in the last two months of her life. She finally had a forever home and knew she was loved. Prayers for all of you.

    ReplyDelete
  27. I'm so happy she had the most wonderful life with you and she knew such incredible love in the end. Sending you my thoughts and prayers. Give Ella an extra hug or two for me.

    ReplyDelete
  28. I'm so sorry. We had to put our dog Juno down this past February and it was very difficult indeed so I understand how difficult it is.

    ReplyDelete
  29. Oh, I am so sorry to read this news. That sweet pup found an amazing home with you, Dan and Ella. Saying prayers for your precious Amelia,
    Jane

    ReplyDelete
  30. Losing a dog is a special kind of pain. I think it's amazing that you gave her such a wonderful last 2 months 1 week and 3 days!

    ReplyDelete
  31. The hardest part of having pets is saying goodbye! They so quickly steal your heart, and bring such joy into your lives. I miss every single pet I have ever had. Saying prayers for your family.
    Karen

    ReplyDelete
  32. Sending love, hugs and prayers to you and your family. I am so happy that Amelia had come to live with you, she knew how much she was loved. I am sure of this. Blessings.

    ReplyDelete
  33. Joan, please try and take comfort in knowing you and Dan gave her love beyond measure, a home where she felt safe and secure, a sister that she got to spend her last days with and even in her passing she was not alone. She heard sweet words of love and caring touches. Please take comfort in knowing she gave you all she had her love and trust. Such sweet gifts . Praying for your family and your sweet Amelia

    ReplyDelete
  34. Sweet, sweet Amelia. May her wonderful joyful spirit remain in your hearts forever.

    ReplyDelete
  35. Oh, Joan and Dan, and Ella, my heart breaks for all of you in the loss of precious Amelia. God surely sent her to y'all, knowing how much you would love her in her last days. I will keep all of you in my prayers. And know that God is loving on Amelia even now.

    ReplyDelete
  36. I'm weeping for you and your heartwrenching loss. Sweet Amelia is at the Rainbow Bridge now whole and happy and she'll be waiting for you.

    ReplyDelete
  37. so very sorry for your loss
    she knew she was loved

    ReplyDelete
  38. With tears streaming down my face I as write this, I want to tell you how deeply sorry I am for your loss of sweet Amelia. You, Dan, and Ella gave this sweet dog the best life in the short time she was with you. God only knows his plan, and I'm sure there are many, but surely Amelia was placed with you for the very reason that she could pass on happy, and loved. God Bless you all.

    ReplyDelete
  39. while there are no words to take away the pain, i'm sending love and prayers for you all. how wonderful that she was so deeply loved these last few months.

    ReplyDelete
  40. I know that I am very different from most. I choose not religion to guide my life. I do believe, however, in the the power of love, that dog is god spelled backward. Such love and grace for so short a time. And, yet, what a magnificent difference she made for the the three of you, and you, for her. Paws in the snow...may there always be pause in the snow for this angel.

    ReplyDelete
  41. Oh lord Joan, I don't know how you wrote that post. I had just sent you a comment a few days ago asking how Amelia was doing and I am devastated to hear the news. But know this - you, Dan, and Ella gave her a wonderful time of joy and love and companionship that she would not have had otherwise. Even in her distress, you took care of her. If she had been at a shelter or with someone less observant and/or caring, she may have suffered longer. Her days were numbered but you gave her such a precious gift for those few days. I will pray for her, and for all of you, but I know you will all be together someday in that place of peace and grace.

    ReplyDelete
  42. My heart is just broken. Her journey was to your home to be loved as she made her way to heaven. Bless your heart. I know the hurt. Sending many prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  43. Can't stop crying about your baby. My two are on the couch next to me as I type this. Those four little paws just crawl into our hearts and leave those paw prints there forever. Your little baby will be in my prayers as will you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  44. My heart goes out to you - I understand too well what you are feeling. But please - try and think of all the love and joy that sweet Amelia felt the past 2 months. I agree that it was not long enough, but thank God that Amelia spent the last months of her life with so much love and tender care all around her.....She knew how much she was loved and cared for - dogs know this just as much as we do...God Bless Amelia and I will be praying for her tonight......

    ReplyDelete
  45. I am so sorry to hear about Amelia. Please know she had happy days with you.

    ReplyDelete
  46. Oh my...oh God....I am suffering with pain from reading this. There is nothing like that kind of heartbreak. I know from having to do it myself when I put my sweet rescue Old English down last year after so many health problems. I just kills you and still today when I drive by the Vet on my way to my sisters I get a huge lump in my throat. I dread the day my second one goes [I got them both at the same time].....but I know I will have another sweet baby who needs a home in no time. You guys are both in my thoughts as you heal.....Sherry

    ReplyDelete
  47. i am crying as I write this, so touched by your words. I am so sorry for your loss. It is abundantly clear that Amelia was meant to be with you. She lived her final days the way every dog should...running, playing, happy, eating, snuggling, laying by the fire, getting treats and having a best friend. And being loved to the moon and back. You are in our thoughts and prayers. xo

    ReplyDelete
  48. I am so sorry for your loss. This made me cry. I too know what it feels like to lose your best friend. Just remember that you gave Amelia a second chance at a good life, and she was a happy dog because of you. Hopefully you will consider to rescue another pup some day and show them the same love you gave to Amelia.

    ReplyDelete
  49. Oh Joan, I am SO very sorry for the loss of this sweet dog. We all know how much you all loved her and she did too. You gave her everything she needed for a happy life with you. She was very lucky to be in your arms and hearts. I am in tears reading this sweet post and will be thinking of and praying for you and Dan and even Ella, as I am sure she will mourn her too. Sending you a huge hug, Pinky

    ReplyDelete
  50. This is such sad news. When I saw your Instagram post, i couldn't believe it! My heart aches for you. Take comfort that you gave her so much love and a good home while she was on this earth.

    ReplyDelete
  51. Joan and Dan, I am so sorry. Your story is absolutely devastating. I too am in tears after reading your post. We had to put one of our boys down over a year ago and I'm still not over it. They bring such love and joy to one's life that losing them is heartbreaking. As you mentioned in your post, you can derive some comfort knowing that her last days were spent with people who loved her so and treated her like the special girl she was. Sending thoughts and prayers your way. . Barbara P from Ma

    ReplyDelete
  52. Oh this breaks my heart! God brought sweet Amelia to you. He knew she needed you and how wonderful that you made her last months and weeks so wonderful and happy. And what a blessing she was to you! I am so very, very sorry for your loss. They truly become part of our family, part of our HEARTS! Poor Ella, I'm sure she is grieving too. I will say a prayer for all of you.

    ReplyDelete
  53. So sorry to read this. What a devasting moment for you all. Wishing you comfort from the good memories of Amelia in the coming days. Loving thoughts for all of you.

    ReplyDelete
  54. You loved her well and gave Amelia the best days of her life. She loved you in return and provided you with much happiness and pleasure. So very sad that she is no longer with you on earth. I'm going to love on my puppy a lot tonight in remembrance of her.

    ReplyDelete
  55. Joan, I can only imagine the sadness that you and your husband are feeling today! I literally have tears running down my face as I read your story of your sweet girl. Our pets are such a source of companionship, humor, comfort and unconditional love! I know my sweet girl has gotten me through some of the darkest days of my life, when I lost my sister 5 yrs. ago to ovarian cancer. I truly don't know what I would have done without her. So sorry for your loss! Love on your Ella extra tight! Hugs to all! Kathy@The Daily Nest

    ReplyDelete
  56. Have you read the blog, Mod Vintage Life:
    http://modvintagelife.blogspot.com/2015/01/mod-mix-monday-179-take-two.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+ModVintageLife+%28Mod+Vintage+Life%29
    Another dog-lover, blogger lost her precious friend. I know it's like having your heart torn out and wanted you two to know each other.

    ReplyDelete
  57. You will always be her Mama. There is no way to convey my deep felt sympathy for all of you: Joan, Dan, and Ella. The picture of Amelia's paw prints in the snow is pure joy. Thank you for allowing your dear sweet dog to experience that.

    ReplyDelete
  58. Mercy. This was hard to read. I had to do the same thing about this time last year to our sweet Angel girl, but she wasn't the first. When Angel was a younger dog, we had to put down her older "sister" Holly. I almost mourned more for Angel's grief than I did for the loss of Holly. You will likely do the same for Ella :( She will certainly go through a hard time, missing her sweet sibling, Amelia. It seemed to take ours about 2 weeks to act a new normal. I'm so very sorry for you and Dan and Ella. People that don't own pets, just don't understand how totally we pour our hearts into these babies. Although our own children are babies and toddlers for just a few years. our dogs or other pets, are always needing us, always unconditionally loving us and wanting to stay in our presence. My prayers are with you tonight, and I'll hug my Bailey Belle a little bit tighter than usual :( And I hope you can dream of Amelia playing in a perfect doggie Heaven....afterall, the Pope himself says it's so!

    ReplyDelete
  59. I am so very very sorry, and I like all of those who have commented have tears in my eyes too. Just know, she will be waiting for you and will greet you as a strong and healthy dog, when she meets you again on the Rainbow Bridge...

    ReplyDelete
  60. I sit here with tears streaming down my face. How blessed that sweet baby was to reach the end of one journey with you all by her side instead of a lonely shelter. May your short but sweet memories be of comfort to you.

    ReplyDelete
  61. My heart breaks for you , Dan and Ella. Our hearts were broken one week ago when our boxer Stormy passed away in our arms. May you find comfort in the many sweet memories of Amelia. She was loved as our sweet Stormy was. Take care. Xoxo. Our furry friends are so special and part of our families.

    ReplyDelete
  62. I'm so very sorry to hear of your beautiful Amelia passing. You, Dan and Ella gave her the most joyous and precious few months she could ever ask for filled with so much love and happiness and her true home. Keeping you all in my prayers

    ReplyDelete
  63. I am so, so sorry for you, Dan, Ella and Amelia. You became a wonderful little family. Something tells me Amelia entered your life so that you could become her Mama. You gave her the love and care she so deserved and she gave you back so much more. I can only imagine your sadness and pain. I will pray that her memory will bring you peace knowing that you gave her the happiness of having a place to call home. ~ Mary

    ReplyDelete
  64. I shared your beautiful story of adopting Amelia on Facebook back when you first posted. I loved the story and hoped it would touch someone else and inspire them to adopt. I am broken hearted for you. I can't believe that she passed. I am so sorry for your loss. I have no doubt that there is a special place in heaven for dogs and that someday you will be reunited. Sending prayers and hugs your way--Melissa

    ReplyDelete
  65. Oh Joan. I have loved reading about your sweet Amelia and sharing her story and pictures with my family; I just read your post tonight to them as well and could not get through it without breaking down. Amelia seemed like such a sweet, sweet girl and it was clear from all the pictures that she had found her true home. She looked so . . . happy. Content and happy. Though I know that the short time she got to spend there makes this all the harder to bear, I pray that in time it will comfort you to remember the peace and happiness she got to experience with you -- her Mama, Daddy, and sister Ella -- during these last two months. I know she must have been through a lot in her life, and how much it must have meant to her to finally be loved. Saying a prayer for all of you and for sweet Amelia tonight. Hugs.

    Allison Hale
    Athens, Georgia

    ReplyDelete
  66. So, so sad. My heart is aching with yours. I had to have my sweet 17-year-old cat Eva put down just before Christmas. There's no way around the grief but through it. If there's any consolation, know that you're not alone. And I believe we'll be with our beloved pets in heaven--heaven is supposed to be perfect, isn't it?

    ReplyDelete
  67. I'm so sorry for all of you. You are her mama and always will be.

    ReplyDelete
  68. Oh, my heart is breaking for you. I'm so sorry to hear of your precious one leaving this life. It's very tender to me because my little Schnauzer, who was almost 15 years old, died almost 2 weeks ago. She was my child and my heart. I'm still grieving and I do know how you feel. Bless you for loving her and giving her such a good life. She showed her gratitude to you by loving you back. I'm saying a prayer for you and your family.
    blessings,
    Shelia

    ReplyDelete
  69. I wish I could comfort you the way you comforted me yesterday with your prayer of thanks. I lost my sweetest and most loving kitty on Saturday, after 15 years of very loyal companionship. Hearing about your precious memories with Amelia makes me smile and cry at the same time. Like you, I have other pets that have been affected by our loss - another cat and a very sweet dog. I will be saying a healing prayer for you and your family. I will also be saying a prayer of thanks for you (again!) - thanks for sharing your memories and your loss. You have lifted me up again. I will light another candle as I give thanks...

    ReplyDelete
  70. Words cannot express my sorrow for all of you, only tears. Ten years ago we had to put our sweet angel puppy to sleep and I still have a heavy heart. I do believe that all my four legged sweet angels are waiting for me to pick them up at Heaven's Rainbow Bridge.

    ReplyDelete
  71. We have never cried harder than when we had to put our sweet dog Katie down. Reading your devotion to your beloved family member was like reliving how painful it is to lose a pet. I am so sorry for your pain and loss. I hope each day gets a bit better as you figure a way to again find the joy our pets bring to us.

    ReplyDelete
  72. What sorrowful news, I'm so very sorry.

    ReplyDelete
  73. I am sorry for your loss and your sadness. Know that she had a wonderful last few months what a blessing you were to her. I understand losing a loved member of your family I honestly do. Losing my boy Wolfgang last June is still unbearably close in my heart. You never get over it but you get on with life. Bless you and your husband for loving this sweet girl

    ReplyDelete
  74. Oh my heart aches. I'm so sorry for you all. sending my love.

    ReplyDelete
  75. So sorry for your loss, God bless all of you. Sweet Amelia loved her family and you made the last few months of her life the happiest. Prayers for healing the hurt!

    ReplyDelete
  76. I am so sorry to hear this terrible news. I know that there are many sweet memories of Amelia to fill your heart. And I will pray for your angel.

    ReplyDelete
  77. I don't know how you had the strength to write this. I only hope you can find comfort in knowing what a wonderful few months you gave her. My heart is broken for you and for Ella.

    ReplyDelete
  78. My heart breaks for you and your loss. I am so sorry. Prayers for your family

    ReplyDelete
  79. A difficult gift of love to give. Prayers for peace and comfort as you, Dan and Ella remember your angel and prayers for strength to meet the coming days.

    ReplyDelete
  80. Oh no!! I am in tears as I read your post. I loved Amelia's story when she came to your family and this is just terribly sad news. My heart goes out to you, Dan and Ella. I am so very sorry but I know Amelia was very, very blessed to be a part of your family. Many prayers and good thoughts for you and your family. I am so very, very sorry.

    ReplyDelete
  81. Ameilia was such a beautiful girl. It is with great sadness I read your story tonight of her sudden passing.
    She had a wonderful, happy life with you and was surely grateful for that time. Thank you for sharing your amazing story of her rescue, I hope it will inspire others to adopt and love a sweet dog needing a family- they give us so much love and happiness that nothing else in life can compare to. Our thought and prayers are with you, Dan and Ella.

    ReplyDelete
  82. I am so sorry for your loss. Sweet Amelia was lucky to have been so loved and cherished by your family.

    ReplyDelete
  83. God bless her sweet soul and yours. Our president spoke tonight how everyone matters.
    Everyone does and that means Ella, four angels at her bed, four angels at her head, one to watch, one to pray, two to bear her soul away. God bless.

    ReplyDelete
  84. Run free sweet Amelia................

    We are so sorry.
    Sending prayers to you.
    Cinnamon

    ReplyDelete
  85. My heart aches for you and your sweet, sweet Amelia. How wonderful that her last 2 months, 1 week and 3 days were filled with such joy and happiness...and she knew the true meaning of love. Prayers for you, Dan and Ella...

    ReplyDelete
  86. Meant Amelia.. so very sorry. God bless and keep to his mercy Amelia

    ReplyDelete
  87. You have to know that these past 2+ months were the best days of Amelia's life. She was so very lucky to have been a member of your family, even if only for a short time.

    ReplyDelete
  88. I was hesitant to comment because it is still so painful to talk about, but my heart goes out to you and your family. We lost Lady, our sweet 9 year old Aussie the night of December 26th to the exact same thing. They said it is called a hemangiosarcoma. I know ya'll must be in shock. One moment they are fine and then the next.. It just happens so fast. Please know that we are sending prayers to your family and dear Amelia. You found each other for a reason and I know you gave her a lifetime of love in those short months. Hold on to the good memories in the days ahead and hug Ella. I'm just so very sorry for the heartbreak you are feeling right now.
    -Kelly Durden
    Fairhope, AL

    ReplyDelete
  89. Joan, I don't think there are any words that I can express to ease your sorrow. Just know that I'm praying for your sweet angel, you, Dan, and most especially Ella as she will be confused. Sending love and hugs your way.

    ReplyDelete
  90. So sad to read this. Even though your time with Amelia was way too short, it was a happy & loving time. I will say a prayer for all of you. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

    ReplyDelete
  91. So, so sorry. My husband and I have been in your shoes quite a few times, so I know what you're going through. . You've lost a beloved family member. My deepest sympathies to you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  92. Only we pet lovers know the depth of your pain - Joan and Dan and Ella. Thank you for sharing your brokenness and vulnerability with us. My hope for you is that at this time you feel our love and support. I gave myself permission to cry every day after I lost my schnauzer boy and I cried every day for 6 months. Thank God your sweet rescued Amelia was ushered into eternity by you and Dan and Ella, Joan, as painful and unfair as it is. I can picture her and my Jake chasing butterflies through green clover whole and well. God bless you during this extremely difficult time.

    Cathy Wyatt
    Houston, TX

    ReplyDelete
  93. My heart is broken too, but the silver lining is she was rescued and knew for a brief time what it was like to be so special. I can barely think about her foot prints melting. Thanks for sharing such sad news..we do want to know

    ReplyDelete
  94. Oh, dear Dan, Joan and Ella,
    I am so sorry for your loss of sweet Amelia. I sit her crying at your words of her final day with you. I believe there is a heaven for pets, even the pope has said as much. I will say a little prayer for Amelia. I wish you the comfort of good memories of her 2 months, 1 week and 3 days with your family.
    xo,
    Karen

    ReplyDelete
  95. I am so sorry. I know how hard it is to loose a dear friend. Take care.

    ReplyDelete
  96. There is nothing like the love of a dog. She was loved beyond words and knew you loved her. I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our 12 year old Golden last year and it's just heartbreaking. Marcy

    ReplyDelete
  97. I am deeply saddened and shocked at the sudden passing of your beloved Amelia. Please know that my thoughts are with you, Dan and Ella. Just believe that she came into your life so that you could give her such love and attention that she deserved, but unfortunately didn't have until now. She will always be with you. Such a sweetie.......

    ReplyDelete
  98. Oh my goodness, I am so heart broken too. I cried reading your story about becoming her mama and I have balled reading this. I am so sorry. :(

    ReplyDelete
  99. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Amelia. She found love with your family in the time she was with you, what a difference you made in her life and she in yours. Keeping Amelia and you, Dan and Ella in my thoughts and prayers.
    Laura
    Bel Air, MD

    ReplyDelete
  100. So very sorry to hear the news about Amellia. (((Hugs))) Take care.

    ReplyDelete
  101. I am so very sorry. What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful dog. Though the loss is very painful, you are all the richer for being together. What a beautiful tribute to life.

    ReplyDelete
  102. Joan, Dan and Ella I am so sorry to learn of your broken hearts. I know the loss of a beloved dog having recently lost my Scamp. The time we are given with them never seems to be adequate for all the love we have for our fur children. Amelia was truly blessed to be with you for such a short time.

    ReplyDelete
  103. Dear Joan, Dan & Ella, Our hearts are breaking for you & sharing your loss of sweet Amelia. How fortunate she was to live her last months in such a joyous, loving home. We will keep her & you in our prayers & thoughts. I am asking Sr Francis of Assisi who loved animals so much to give your dear Amelia a big hug & welcome to heaven. I wish there were words of comfort I could send you. How wonderful that your big, loving hearts had a chance to hold Amelia close. I am sending you a big hug & lots of love. Although we have never met, I feel I "know" you through your posts - please know that so much love is being sent to all of you.

    In sympathy & love,

    Kathy Bunge, Huntington Beach, Calif.

    ReplyDelete
  104. I am so sorry to hear of your family's loss, Joan.
    What a beautiful life Amelia lived in your loving care.
    I will pray and give our Chocolate Gousse a hug as I pray and tell her about her newest guardian puppy angel!
    ~Lynne
    withLove.

    ReplyDelete
  105. I understand your sorrow, our furry little friends/kids bring so much to us. Once they walk into our lives, they are there forever. Who can take our memories away and the sweet love they give us.? Rest in peace sweet Amelia and may your memories of her help you in your sadness. A hug and a prayer for you. Felicia. bfhamlin@bevcomm.net

    ReplyDelete
  106. I'm so sorry for you and Dan - and for sweet Ella. Although the time together was not long enough, Amelia had a home filled with love. What a wonderful gift for all of you to have shared this loving time together.
    Sending you hugs.

    Katherine

    ReplyDelete
  107. Oh, Joan, I am so sorry. I couldn't believe it when I read your first words. I had just shared your adoption story with a friend this weekend. Tears streamed down my face as I read and re-read your words and continue as I write this. I know your pain, as we had to put down our beloved Maddie four months ago, and we, too, had been with her telling her how wonderful she was and how we loved her. What a gift these sweet dogs are to expand our hearts and teach us about unconditional love. And what a gift you and Dan gave her - the best days of her too short life. May it be a solace to you. I feel sure that Amelia's sweet loving spirit is saying "I'm still here with you, Mama, even when the snow melts and my paw prints disappear, and I'll run beside Ella as the grass turns green and blooms with violets. My heart was too full of love for you for my body to bear, but now it knows no bounds. You showed me heaven, and heaven is where I am. I am oh so close."

    ReplyDelete
  108. She was a lucky, loved puppy. She has passed over the Rainbow Bridge and will be waiting for you, Dan, and Ella with a smile on her face and a wagging tale. My sympathies to you, Dan, and Lovely Ella.

    ReplyDelete
  109. I'm so very sorry. I lost my 13 year old Baylee in November. Thank you for giving her the best 2 months 1 week and 3 days a doggie could ever have. You are in my thoughts.

    ReplyDelete
  110. Two months, 1 week and 3 days was not enough, however in such a short time beautiful Amelia not only changed your lives forever but fill your readers hearts with love and joy. The wonderful photos of Amelia being a happy, loved and carefree dog with her best friend Ella will always be etched in your memories. Oh how I wept when I read your blog. Sadness has overwhelmed me, but your puppy angel will always be watching over her family. Sending prayers your way. Love from Wendy at Highfields Australia.

    ReplyDelete
  111. I am so sad for you and am crying while I read about Amelia. You and Amelia and Dan were meant to be together for those 2 months 1 week and 3 days. You gave Amelia a wonderful life for too short a time. Please accept my sympathy for your loss.

    ReplyDelete
  112. Dear Joan & Dan, this is so, so, so not fair. Sending you love & light across the Great Divide.
    Millie xx

    ReplyDelete
  113. You were her hope.... a reminder that she was worthy of love.... You loved her well......

    ReplyDelete
  114. Oh my goodness, what terrible news. I'm so glad that you were all able to give her such a loving send off, and what a blessing that she was able to find her fur-ever home before she passed. You are all in my prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  115. I am sobbing. Hoping not to awaken my husband. I am so so sorry. And I am so so grateful and happy that Amelia....had that happiness and joy in her life! Without you; she would have had only deprivation and sickness!

    She was probably sick when she got to you; but the joy she felt lifted her out of her suffering and let her frolic and play!

    I hope she will be a perfect example of the reason for adopting and rescuing.....and I hope your hearts will mend soon. Ella will miss her too! OH, please don't give up adopting!!

    ps my beloved mother's name was Ella; and my daughter's name is Ella also!

    ReplyDelete
  116. Sniff, sniff. My heart is broken reading about your sweet, gentle loving Amelia. How fortunate Amelia was to belong to you, and vice versa. What a wonderful gift memories of her will be! My prayers are with you and your family.
    "Dogs aren't our whole life, but they certainly do make our lives whole.".
    Nancy, Ohio

    ReplyDelete
  117. Prayers for Amelia...and for you, Dan and Ella. I can't imagine the void you feel.

    Kathy Bunge's reference above to St. Francis of Assisi reminds me of a quote attributed to him:
    “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.”

    Amelia is light, indeed. As you continue to light candles in the home you provided for Amelia, may the love, joy and peace that you, Dan and Ella brought her in her final months bring you comfort.

    Angela

    ReplyDelete
  118. You don't know me, and I don't really know you - I just found your blog around the time you brought Amelia home. But I want to tell you that you gave that girl the best 2 months, 1 week, and 3 days of her life and she knew you were her mama.

    ReplyDelete
  119. Amelia was a beautiful girl!! She thrived because of the love you gave her. So very sorry for your loss.

    ReplyDelete
  120. I am so sorry and sad for you and Amelia, but glad too that you had this time together and that Amelia had a wonderful home to end her all too short days. You gave her the most wonderful gift of a new home and lots of love. xx

    ReplyDelete
  121. Am so sorry for your loss. Just reading brings a tear. She was also so lucky to have you

    ReplyDelete
  122. I am not without tears here, this late visit, leaves me heart broken for you, such touching photos of your sweet family, my daughter and I tell our Pia, (italian Greyhound) that we are her Mama! She knows that we both have names yet we are both her Mama! :) we have had her 15 months coming to us new born and to have to face your heartache would be unimaginable for us.
    I truly cannot express how beautifully touching this post is and how real tears soak my pillow.

    Blessed you will be for caring, loving, and giving your girl Amelia, a beautiful home to rest her broken heart on.
    I will leave you with a gentle pray of peace, and your love she slipped away with was felt dearly.

    Xx
    Dore

    ReplyDelete
  123. Joan and Dan,
    I am so sorry for your loss of sweet Amelia so soon after adopting her. I loved your announcement adopting her and feel the same about adopting from rescue. I hope it brings comfort to know that she enjoyed her wonderful life with you and Ella. She finally had a family that loved her and her last months were filled with love. Hugs, Sarah

    ReplyDelete
  124. I have been reading your blog for two years but never commented. But today I want to say you, I am so sorry, can`t stop crying, so sad about your loss. For nearly 40 years I had dogs - mostly collies, our last passed at the age of 16 in last fall.
    You gave your little girl the best part of her life and all the wonderful memories will be in your heart
    Many blessings
    Eli

    ReplyDelete
  125. I'm sooooo sorry for you.......
    Hugs,
    Stella

    ReplyDelete
  126. ...there is a silence when one heart beat is suddenly missing from a home...it makes no difference if that heart beat is human or animal...for we all have the same Creator...my heart and prayers are with you and dan...and ella...for like many...I too have been where you stand today...to love and animal is a great blessing...to be loved by on in return is even greater...love and blessings laney

    ReplyDelete
  127. This was so hard to read with my tear-welled eyes. Sweet Amelia was brought into your lives for a reason- she needed you and you gave her unconditional love and care. God bless her little soul.

    ReplyDelete
  128. I want you to know how heavy my heart is right now also. Amelia looks so much like our Charlie girl. I so loved the whole story about her coming into your lives, a meant to be story. People say animals have no soul. I have never ever believed that. I do not believe that when they pass that God dismisses them. I believe your Amelia is in heaven running and playing. She may have even met our Lucy and Gracie. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I thank God that he brought your beautiful Amelia into your lives. ~Bobbie

    ReplyDelete
  129. Thank you for sharing your heart with me today... I could hardly make it through your story, so many tears. Our animals are so attached to our souls. I said a prayer for little Amelia and your family, and may you all find strength in the gifts that she gave over such a short little life.

    ReplyDelete
  130. I'm so very sorry for the loss of your sweet, loving Amelia. Pets occupy such a special place in our hearts, and the time we have with them always seems far too short. Thank you for sharing such a sincere, earnest tribute to your Amelia. Sending prayers for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  131. oh, Joan, my heart is breaking for you all... I was just reading Ecclesiastes over the weekend; there are seasons in life for everything, and sweet Ameila had her final glorious season with you, Dan, and Ella. What a loving God to give that to her! And the sweet memories the three of you are left with will be bittersweet, but my prayer is that you can dwell on the sweet and not the sad. Lifting you all up in prayer, including my love Ella, who I know is missing her compadre. Love to you all -- xo Heidi

    ReplyDelete
  132. Your sweet Amelia is looking down from heaven with a healthy, full heart. Full of thanks for her sweet earthly Mama and family. May God ease your pain in such a terrible loss. God bless you, Dan and Ella for the love you gave to Amelia! So sorry for your loss....Deni

    ReplyDelete
  133. My heart is breaking for you. I know there are no words to help with the pain you are all feeling, but know that she was sent to be with you and know the feeling of being loved, so very loved. She did not leave this world alone, and that is a blessing. She has left her paw print on your heart, God Bless you all!!!

    ReplyDelete
  134. My heart so aches for you as tears roll down my face. No words can comfort the loss of our dear pets. It is so hard to let them go. I lost all four of my chickens last year to diseases, and believe it or not, I loved them as much as I love my dog. It is so hard to have your heart ripped out over and over again, but I cling to the joy they brought me on a daily basis and know that they are in heaven and not suffering anymore. I pray God comforts your heart as no one else can and give you sweet peace.
    Cindy

    ReplyDelete
  135. Devastating news. I am heartbroken for you, Dan and Bella, but take comfort in knowing you gave Amelia the best two months, one week and three days of her life.
    XO

    ReplyDelete
  136. As I cry typing this, my heart breaks for you and your family. Just know she had the beds days of her life with you. Sending hugs your way.

    ReplyDelete
  137. I feel the pain over the death of your beloved Amelia! The sharp onset of grief caused me to have to lay aside my pad for a new minutes, So so sorry. One day we will have to have our 15 year old beagle mix put down, but for now we love on him as much as we can as we go with hime through the aging process for a dog. So very sad for you and Dan. Hopefully know inf you faveAmelia the best was few days of her life will give you some comfort, but I know you will miss her in the days ahead.

    ReplyDelete
  138. "God will prepare everything for our perfect happiness in heaven, and if it takes my dog being there, I believe he'll be there." BILLY GRAHAM

    I am truly sorry for your loss. I too have a rescue dog, he rescued me more than I rescued him. I am keeping you in my prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  139. I am truly so sorry for the loss of your sweet Amelia. Our fur-babies do hold such special places in our hearts.

    ReplyDelete
  140. Those two months, one week, and three days were the whole world to Amelia. You and Dan made her life into one filled with love and joy ... remember this as you grieve. Through your words and images of Amelia in her new life, we all came to love her and we grieve with you. My condolences to all of you ... I am so, so sorry.

    ReplyDelete
  141. I am so sorry for your loss. You did not have much time with Amelia but I am thankful for the time you had. I am thankful Amelia got to know what being loved felt like. Not knowing her life before you adopted her, it's comforting to known what a great life she had with you. Again, I am so sorry.

    ReplyDelete
  142. She has crossed the rainbow bridge. She is with all the other dogs...

    We weep for you all. It was the toughest day of my 62 year life when we had to put our 13 year 3 month old Irish Terrier down this past June 28th. I cried like I have never cried before. More than when losing family. MOLLY WAS family. But as time goes by...it gets easier. Time will make it better. Wil it go away? No, but it will get to the point that you can talk about the dog without tears.

    Cry...cry all you want. It is OK.

    I live in NH too. If you need to talk, email me. I am a good listener. Can't promise I won't sob with you though.

    ReplyDelete
  143. I am so sorry for your loss. Two months, one week, three days and being loved to the very last minute and beyond was a great gift between the three of you.
    Amelia left a calling card in all our hearts.

    I have to add. The moment you captured of the dogs and Dan in the field captured pure, pure joy.

    ReplyDelete
  144. There are no words to comfort you during this time but I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad Amelia had the time she did with the three of you, Dan, Joan and Ella. You're all wonderful. May the memory of her joy in being with you ease your hearts.

    ReplyDelete
  145. I came back to reread this today. It just breaks my heart. I know you are so very sad. How is Ella? Please know many are praying for you all. Amelia was one of God's creatures and you will see her again. xo
    Dianne ( from NC )

    ReplyDelete
  146. Thank you for sharing Amelia with us! I loved her through you and am so glad she had you at the end of her short life. Please give another dog a wonderful home when your heart heals a little bit.

    ReplyDelete
  147. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I was so moved when you first posted about adopting sweet Amelia. Those pictures of her playing in the snow and being so well cared for just warmed my heart. I am so happy that you and Dan adopted her and that you gave her such a wonderful life in the end. She is your angel and she will be with you always. Peace and prayers to you.

    ReplyDelete
  148. Oh Joan....there are no words. I'm late in seeing this post from you, and I hope you're still reading your replies. This internet thing....so impersonal, yet I feel I know you. How can that be? I just want to give you and Dan and Ella a hug, but I can't, so I try to find words of comfort to write. I know all too well the loss of a beloved pet, so many of us do. Geez, crying now trying to find words and they don't come. You are such good people. Amelia is loved and so are you. Please take comfort in that knowledge and know you did your very best for her. The world needs more people like you. I will say a prayer for Amelia and you, Dan, and Ella.
    Bev

    ReplyDelete
  149. ohhh, Joan and Dan, I ache for your loss.

    ReplyDelete
  150. Oh I'm so sorry to hear this! Your time with her was so short! She had a wonderful life in the end and you will always cherish the memories.

    ReplyDelete
  151. I am so sorry to hear this news. My heart is breaking for you.
    It is so hard to lose our beloved companions.
    I am saying a prayer for you.

    ReplyDelete
  152. So very very sorry to hear of your loss...but at least you and Dan gave her the very best life she could have wished for in those few short months....thinking of you all as you adjust to her absence. Sharon x

    ReplyDelete
  153. I cried when I read about your loss. I am not a cryer, but I so loved it when you told the story of how you adopted her. You are wonderful people to have given her a loving home for the time she had. She was a wonderful dog. Madeline

    ReplyDelete
  154. Joan, my heart is aching with yours. I have no doubt at all that those 2 months, 1 week and 3 days were the very best days of Amelia's life. What gifts you all gave to each other in that brief time! I believe her spirit will continue running through those fields and forests with you, her beloved family. I'll say a prayer for Amelia as requested, but I'm praying for you, Dan, and Ella, too.

    ReplyDelete
  155. Hello Joan, Words cannot convey the sadness of this event, so soon after Amelia's coming to you, or how badly I feel for you. After her hard life, you gave her love and comfort, possibly the only loving home she ever had. There is nothing really that I can say; I hope that letting your readers share your pain has allayed your own somewhat.
    --Jim

    ReplyDelete
  156. Joan,
    I am so sorry to hear about Amelia. I was so very excited to learn that you had finally found the perfect sister for Ella after so much thoughtful searching. I hope you can find comfort that she was able to experience such a wonderful life during her time with you. Prays for all of you!

    Brooke

    ReplyDelete
  157. I wish there were magic words to ease the pain...and as others have said, Amelia had the best life possible when you had her...try to let that give you some comfort. Hugs....Rosie

    ReplyDelete
  158. Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

    Author unknown...

    How lucky Amelia was to have adopted you!

    Karen L.

    ReplyDelete
  159. So, so sorry! Once the pain has passed, allow your heart to be open to give another dog a safe and loving forever home. You will never regret doing it. Love to you all!

    ReplyDelete
  160. i am so very sorry for your loss. we don't know each other but i stand with you today. i sent up prayers for your sweet girl as well as for you, dan and ella. everyone who has ever been lucky enough to love and be loved by a dog knows your pain. i hope one day soon, you will consider adopting another sweet soul to love. any puppy would be lucky to lucky to live in your heart. wishing you peace...

    ReplyDelete
  161. Tears came as I read this. My 11 year old Golden also died from Pericardial Effusion due to hemangiosarcoma. It was sudden, shocking, and heartbreaking. I'm so sorry. Thank you for giving Amelia the best Dog Life ever for the short time she was with you.

    ReplyDelete
  162. Terribly heartbreaking news! I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad for the precious few days you had together.

    ReplyDelete
  163. I'm so sorry for your loss! I know Amelia is in doggie heaven being thankful that she was able to join you even though your time together was short.

    ReplyDelete
  164. I just cried with you as I read this. I don't always comment, but oh, gosh. I'll always cry with a friend. Amelia was the luckiest girl. Hugs all around. Cassandra

    ReplyDelete
  165. So sorry to learn of the loss of your sweet Amelia!! We all know how much you, Dan, and Ella loved her and how heartbroken you must all be. But please take comfort in knowing what a wonderful life she had these past few months with you. She probably thought then that she died and went to heaven, only to find out now that real heaven is even better! Hugs to you all from South Dakota (Tami from SD)

    ReplyDelete
  166. So very very sorry and saddened for you, Dan and Ella. Prayers are with you now and in the days to follow. I have been thanking God for giving you to Amelia since the day you posted of your joyous "joining of hearts". Know...that you, Dan and Ella were hand picked for Amelia and your love was second to none. Thank you for sharing your huge heart.

    ReplyDelete
  167. So very sorry to read about your lovely dog, how terribly sad for you all. X

    ReplyDelete
  168. Dear Joan, The Bible tells us that not even one sparrow falls to earth without the loving care of God. He knows your sweet Amelia and Ella, you and Dan and the pain you are enduring. I live in Maine ; and in a very old cemetery in Nobleboro there is a simple grave marker for a dog,"Ginger 1927" It reads, "Rest lightly on him, earth for he was thistledown to you. Somewhere on the Blessed Isle where little dogs have their will, he plays and has my love until I come for him". Loving comfort and peace to you, Jinny M.

    ReplyDelete
  169. Tears....dogs just so wiggle into our hearts. I am so sorry for all of you. She was blessed to find her way to your home even for this short time.
    I love the comment with the quote above. We love our dogs. Hugs.

    ReplyDelete
  170. So so very sorry to hear. I also know the pain of losing a beloved pet unexpectedly, and the heartbreak of having to make that decision. I still cry, 2 years later. Hugs and blessings to you and Dan.

    ReplyDelete
  171. I am so incredibly sorry for you and your loss. I am so sorry for Ella as well. We have rescued several dogs in our past, and know the joy of seeing them change before our eyes when given the opportunity to be loved and cared for. And, we have felt the pain of their loss, way before what should have been their time to go. My prayers are with you and yours.

    ReplyDelete
  172. Words cannot express the pain I feel for you and your husband! Animals are like children. They love you better than anything and when they leave this world your heart is broken. Please draw comfort from all the prayers and encouraging words that come your way. Soooo sorry for your loss!

    ReplyDelete
  173. Oh I am so so sorry. We lost our first dog early and it is so cruel. We felt cheated out of time with her. Dogs are precious gifts and friends. I'll be thinking about you today.

    ReplyDelete
  174. Dear Joan, Dan & Ella, Heartfelt sympathies to all of you.

    "You think dogs will not be in heaven? I tell you, they will be there long before any of us"
    Robert Louis Stevenson

    Be comforted in knowing that sweet Amelia is in heaven and your family will be reunited.

    ReplyDelete
  175. I am so sorry about the loss of your sweet Amelia...I cried as I read your post...I lost my sweet boy of 17 years last year...it was one of the saddest days of my life. My heart rejoices though in the lovely life she had these past several weeks, how happy and loved she was...Hugs to you today and in the days to come...

    ReplyDelete
  176. She had two months, 1 week and 3 days of the best life she could have ever wished for. What a lucky girls to have had that time with you, and what lucky people you are to have had that time with her. Hemangiosarcoma is a terrible tumor, and most often starts on the heart. You absolutely did the right thing, so she wouldn't suffer and only feel love while she passed. Hugs to you all xo Andrea

    ReplyDelete
  177. Such a shock to read this. I loved, loved your post about finding Amelia and her coming home to you. You made all of us love her too. My heart is broken for you, also. You did give her the best 2 months 1 week, and 3 days of her life. Everyday is hard to get through for a while. I know how much you miss her. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    Lauren

    ReplyDelete
  178. Dear Joan, Tammy from the Brazoria County shelter, from which Amelia came, just emailed me to let me know that she had passed. We are so very sorry for your loss and it is so hard when these sweet rescues that have been denied so much in their lives, pass away so soon after finally finding peaceful, loving homes...it has happened to me, and all of us that dedicate our lives to rescue. Amelia knew so much love in the short time you had her, she passed away knowing true bliss and peace. We recently placed a dog we pulled from Taiwan, blind/lived in a shelter in a tiny cage her whole 8 yrs...we brought her to Houston and she has just found her forever home with a wonderful lady. She realized she was adopting a senior dog, but wanted to give this sweet baby everything she could in the time she has left. These fur babies are gifts, they open our hearts to true unconditional love. Remember, dog is God spelled backward...that is not a coincidence.

    ReplyDelete
  179. I am sitting here with tears running down my cheeks. I was so happy for you when I read you adopted Amelia. I know how hard it must have been.I had to put my dog down that I had for 14 years and I held him til he took his last breath. But whether 14 years or 2 months 1 week and 3 days, you gave Amelia a chance and the best time she could have had. I believe she was sent to you for a reason. I am so sorry for your loss.

    I know that you can't see me,
    but trust me I'm right here
    although I'm up in heaven my love for you stays near.

    So often I see you crying
    many times you call my name
    I want so much to lick your face
    and ease some of your pain.

    I wish I could make you see
    that heaven indeed is real
    if you could see me run and play
    how much better would you feel.

    But our loving God has promised
    that when the time is right
    you'll step out of the darkness
    and meet me in the light.

    ReplyDelete
  180. Oh my. Your dear dog was so lucky to have found you and Dan and Ella and to know what family meant before her untimely passing. I know that all of your hearts are broken, but bigger and more capable than before she came into your lives. Losing a dog so suddenly is a message to choose love every day. Blessings and hugs.

    ReplyDelete
  181. My heart is breaking for you, Dan and Ella. No words can take away your sorrow but hopefully you can find comfort in knowing that sweet Ella was so very happy in her time with you. Hugs to all three of you.

    ReplyDelete
  182. I read your post with many, many tears rolling down my cheeks. I am so very sorry for what happened. I have felt that heartbreak before and I know how painful it is. When I saw Amelia's pictures for the first time, I was struck by the sweet, soulfulness of her eyes. You could just tell how sensitive a soul she was. It is easy to see that she loved you dearly. Even though your hearts are broken, I hope it helps to know that you gave her such joy. I am sending up prayers for dear Amelia, as well as for you and Dan. Again, I'm so very sorry for all three of you. xoxoxo

    Betsy

    ReplyDelete
  183. Sweet Amelia was truly meant for you. I shared in your joy reading her adoption story. She relished a wonderful 2 months, 1 week and 3 days with you. If one human year is seven years in a dogs life the time she spent with you in her heart was 14 months, 7 weeks, and 21 days. Kindest and sincerest regards from our family in Austin.

    ReplyDelete
  184. I'm so, so sorry. My heart hurts for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  185. Oh, so sorry to read this. The tears are flowing. It's so hard to believe there is a reason for things happening as they do when one suffers such anguish. Prayers to you, Dan, and Ella ...

    Shelley

    ReplyDelete
  186. I remember reading your post when Amelia came into your lives.....I was sobbing in a good way! It was so evident the love you had for her before she even arrived. I could hardly believe what I was reading this morning......I am SO very sorry for you loss! It is clear how much joy she brought to your household in the short time she was with you......if only she could have told you, I'm sure the joy and love she felt from you all was the best she had ever experienced!! They say God works in mysterious ways, many times we don't understand or like......a blessing you can feel is Amelia was in a loving home have the best time of her life! you all had that albeit, short as it was xoxoxo

    ReplyDelete
  187. Oh Joan, I am so so very sorry. I can't stand it ... our pups and kittens and loved ones should stay with us forever, I can't take these goodbyes .. I am so sorry . She was such a good girl and so lucky to have you as her family, with Ella such a good big sister. God Bless little Amelia..
    Candice (weeping for you and Amelia and all of us )

    ReplyDelete
  188. Oh I just have tears rolling down my face right now. I cried happiness when I read your post about adopting her, and today, my mouth dropped open as I read this and then the tears came fast and furious again, but for the other side of it. I'm so sorry that she had to go. She had to have been so happy these last 2 months, 1 week and 3 days. A perfect family with whom to spend her last days. Thank you for sharing and God bless your family.

    ReplyDelete
  189. Joan and Dan,
    I have been reading your posts for almost two years now (from the beginning and some twice) and have never written in. So many times I have been tempted but was "shy". This one I cannot not reply to. I am broken-hearted for you. I am a dog lover and was overjoyed when you took Amelia in to join you both and Ella. May you find comfort in knowing you gave Amelia two months of heaven on earth before she went to doggie heaven. My prayers are with all of you.

    ReplyDelete
  190. Oh Joan & Dan and Ella:
    I am was soooo sad to hear about Sweet Amelia. I know the loss of our furry ones is devastating.
    I cried a river as I was reading this, the strength, courage to write this post.
    This as follows is one of my favorites.
    Tribute to a Dog
    The one absolutely unselfish friend that man can have in this selfish world, the one that never
    deserts him the one that never proves ungrateful or treacherous, is his dog. A man's dog stands by
    him in prosperity and in health and in sickness. He will sleep on the cold ground, where the wintry
    wind blows and the snow drives fiercely, if only he may be near his masters side. He will kiss the
    hand that has no food to offer; he will lick the wounds and sores that come in encounter with the
    roughness of the world. He guards the sleep of his pauper master as if he were a prince. When
    all other friends desert , he remains. When riches take wings and reputation falls to pieces, he
    is as constant in his love as the sun in its journey through the heavens."
    Senator George Vest, 1870

    ReplyDelete
  191. Sweet Amelia wasn't ours, but we loved her and your story all the same! Love, prayers and we share your tears! ��

    ReplyDelete
  192. He is your friend your partner your defender your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will
    be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart.
    The devotion we shall always give back to our furry ones.
    You are in our thoughts and prayers.
    Love,
    Karen ,Tank and Tanner
    Oops sorry the above comment was mine

    ReplyDelete
  193. I added this to the original post, but wanted to add it here in the comment section also in hopes that you will see it:

    Dan and I are absolutely overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support and prayers you have given to us and to Ella. We have read each comment on the blog, each email, and each comment on Instagram outloud to one another and we have cried and sobbed. We have felt so loved and held in this time of shock and grief over losing sweet Amelia so suddenly and too soon. Your words have soothed our broken hearts, your tears have made us feel understood in our grief, and we have felt the love of your comforting hugs.
    Knowing that so many of you are saying a prayer for Amelia has brought us the most special gift. It is as if all your many prayers are carrying her on wings of love and she is being ushered into heaven by you. I can never thank you enough for making us feel this and making Amelia so loved in this moment. She was our gift, and you are our gift also. I cherish each and every one of you. While we might not know each other personally I feel we know one another's soul- the soul that loves house and home and dogs (pets.)
    To all of you who have mentioned your lost beloved pets- our sympathies to you. We are so grateful that you told us about your loves.
    Tonight when I light our candles we will do it as a family and say "Thank you" for each and every one of you- you have given us the gift of love and prayer and understanding and we are so very, very grateful.
    Through tears we Thank you.
    with much love,
    Joan and Dan and Ella

    ReplyDelete
  194. Oh, my heart hurt when reading this post. I am so sorry to hear about Amelia. I know what it is to lose pets, and feel the empty place that is left behind. There is just no getting around that it hurts deeply. You gave Amelia so much love while she was with you...and that is a beautiful thing. You know you made a difference in her life, and that she loved you back! Praying for peace for you, during this sad time.

    ReplyDelete
  195. I am so very sorry for your loss. Your heartbreak and love for her are palpable. I am in tears after reading this. I will be praying for you. Know that the short time she was with you she undoubtedly knew she was loved.

    ReplyDelete
  196. My heart breaks for you, Dan and Ella. Your story of adopting Amelia was so inspiring and will live in your heart and all of ours forever. She is such a sweet angel pup who undoubtedly knew she was loved and you gave her the best life experience she could have dreamed of. Sending love, prayers and peace to you, Joan.

    ReplyDelete
  197. We feel your pain and are so sorry for your loss. I shared your story of adopting Amelia with so many people and everyone of them cried with joy that she had found such a wonderful, loving home. We will keep all of you in our prayers.

    ReplyDelete

Welcome! Thank you for leaving a comment; you have no idea how much your comments inspire me to keep writing- I appreciate each and every one. Comments are moderated by me prior to publishing on the blog, so if you don't see your comment post immediately it will be posted as soon as I receive and read it. joan